I can’t make it stop hurting. You’ll have to do that yourself, and you’ll get it done. I know you.
Eventually there’ll be that stubborn look. Scowling, grunting and swearing, you’ll push the stones off your body. The bleeding doesn’t really matter because once you push past the cave-in, you begin to feel some light on your skin, and some of it starts to heal up.
What I know for sure is that I am singing for you, to you. It’s safe. It’s lovely, easy, gentle. Nothing will ever hurt you this way again. You won’t get caught out again, dancing in light clothes, laughing, when wrongness cuts out your heart.
Sure, making a hard shell works for a while. There’s nothing wrong with shutting out the world at first.
But we’re all just seeds. Inside our stiff casings there’s soft stuff that none of us understands.
Eventually the cells begin to stretch. The scar tissue makes our hearts new. Legs and wings sprout, even though we swore it would never never happen.
The wings come from the Divine, and we float on a holy wind. We think we can run again. We try dancing. A voice starts low and scratchy but quivers, grows and sings.
There is terrible wrongness in life. Injury. Illness. Grief. Shame. No one deserves pain. No one wants this to happen. But it does.
That hard seed, the scarred heart, is holy. When pain tears the heart open, it hurts. What grows afterwards is so beautiful that pilgrims light candles, kneel to it and chant.
So keep digging out, a little bit every day. Just keep going. Come here, to where there’s a beach and gleaming waves. It will be a gentle evening, and I made this bonfire just for you.